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A Return to Hollywood?

I heard back from the LGBT Clinic of Los Angeles and they said that because I have Medi-Cal I could see their transgender health specialists at no extra cost, but I would have to do my lab work within the country of my specific insurance provider which isn't that big of a deal considering that is what I am already doing. Now I have a plan B because this referral games bullshit is really starting to piss me off and I started to get afraid that I might have ran into some kind of a block. So now I have a plan B going forward. They gave me the number to call for appointments. I am still going to give these people another week or so to get my referral, but after which I am just going to call this place.

I regret not going there from the get go, but I was too busy taking into consideration that my mother didn't want to drive all the way to Hollywood (even though Google maps says it's around the same amount of time as my current place), but she said this is doable for us and I am tired of dwelling on hindsight and regret. I'm trying to stay in the present and focusing on the future. I think we agree, the past is over. I always had this feeling that I would be returning to Hollywood later in life. The only other time I visited there was when I went with my mother and her Journey friends on the Journey message boards she used to frequent to attend the Walk of Fame ceremony for the band. Which interesting enough is a few blocks down from this clinic giving her somewhere to go while I was meeting with the doctor(s). Knowing that I would most likely have to follow up it fills me with wonder that I could end up becoming an expert as to what there is in that general location. This feels exciting. Like, almost, this was supposed to happen.

This clinic is also similar to something I have always wanted to start. They even provide rooms for those who are kicked out or homeless which is also something that I would have included in another dream of mine. I am honestly thinking of volunteering to work for them if I didn't live miles away from Hollywood Blvd.

"Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel, you can’t always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving, you will come to a better place." ~Uncle Iroh, Avatar the Last Airbender

I feel like Katniss Everdeen.

Everytime I have to acquire a referral for my 3 month follow up visit with my endocrinologist. I hate having to constantly make a ton of phone calls and physical visits to my primary care physican's office because they don't happen to have my doctor's notes or orders for a follow up on file. So this leads me to call my endocrinologist's office where they tell me that they do have those files sent already. Now they give me the department for utilization management only for them to tell me the same thing and even when someone from the referral department at my primary care physican's office calls them to leave a message they still haven't recieved any callbacks regarding the issue. This is literally making me wish I had gone to an LGBT clinic to see one of their specialists and pay out of pocket. They at least work on a sliding scale the last time I looked into it and perhaps it could have saved me the headache of playing the 3 month Referral Games. Why do I have to feel like Katniss Everdeen every time I have to get something done?

The Star Wars expanded universe turns the protagonist into a Gary/Mary Stu/Sue.

The Legends continuity gave every major historical significance of the galaxy to Luke Skywalker. I don't think there were any major failures for the character post-Return of the Jedi. That is why it felt refreshing for him to fail at re-establishing the Jedi Order and losing his nephew to the dark side. He was a hero that couldn't live up to his hero status. Now go ahead and complain about Rey being perfect even though she is at the start of her monomyth. When people try to call Luke a Gary Stu it really makes me reflect on what I've learned from Legends. He kind of was though it may not have been on intention.
This is why I am so hoping that the newly established canon doesn't repeat the same shit only substituting Luke for Rey. I want to see Rey have success when it's time for the audience to say good-bye to the character in films, but not turn her into a true Mary Sue especially when the new EU has attempted to downplay that notion. There are explanations as to why she was good at flying for example. The truth is that nether Luke or Rey are perfect characters, but it just feels that way for different reasons.
The expanded universe is that because it expands upon the main saga which is primarily a Skywalker ordeal. It should focus on many characters defining the galaxy and not just on a single protagonist from the movies that follow their own stories. Rey shouldn't bring back the Jedi Order. She has no reason to after learning about why they needed to end from Luke. If she does establish a new order it should be to show force sensitive individuals what they can use their abilities and gifts for regardless of light or dark. I can see Rey and Ben doing this together where the dark side learners practice restraint. This still wouldn't be the Jedi Order since they wouldn't follow their doctrine and would make perfect sense.

Fans want to claim Rey is a Mary Sue then they should hold off until the expanded universe authors take hold of her and hopefully that would never happen. Give her some historical relevance post-Episode IX and leave it at that. Design and craft your own characters to shape this newly established canon.